Number of friends to whom I am out out: 4
Number of friends to whom I am ambiguous and super likely queer: 1
Number of friends to whom I am ambiguous and probably queer: 4

Also, she asked for a hug today and it was so lovely. Made me super happy!!!
Also, I think I'm a little jealous of her ex... They are hanging out again, a bit. And I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't like feeling this way!

I keep getting this overwhelming feeling to tell people that I'm queer. I don't know if I can say for sure that I'm gay because I don't know. I think I am, but I don't know.
And looking back on it all, its been quite a few years since my first crush on a girl. Now that some time has past and my frustration and anger and stress about having crushes on girls is starting to pass, I just feel like announcing it to my friends and then continuing on with life as normal! This is a weird feeling.

She says things sometimes that makes me feel like she's not at all interested in me as a potential romantic interest. She'll say things like she hates it when a friend confesses love to her and so 'ruins the friendship.' But then she'll say that if she likes someone, she'll keep it to herself. And that she's frustrated because we do often keep it to ourselves. So maybe I should tell her. But maybe I shouldn't.

I feel like my time is ticking because this Friday is the day where she goes TO MEET OTHER LGBTQ KIDS and I know she's looking for others and maybe I should ask her before hand or maybe--I don't know!

I have a total crush on her. My goodness. At least my sexuality crisis went quite smoothly. (This does not include the process of coming out... which hasn't yet happened yet. I hope it goes as smoothly.)

Although, just for the record, I doubt that I'm 100% gay any more than I am 100% heterosexual.
And, just for the record, I'm curious about whether there might be a bit of asexuality but maybe not.